Wow fogg thanks for sharing that with me, And I know that must have been a very tough moment that I know u wont forget.. and I really want to avoid that at all cost. and u're right maybe I am writing a fairytale in my head, and most likely you will see a post from me the next day all confused and hurt.. I wont force it, she has keys to the house imma start doing my thing if she wants go help good if not I will be fine, maybe if she doenst show up will be for the best. not going to lie I will enjoy the company but Im afraid that Im just expecting the wrong type of company.!