RG I hope the dynamics are changing. I feel like they are, but I am scared to get my hopes up. H still hasn't said he loves me or hasn't admitted that he has any role at all in our problems. I am half way through the DR book. So far nothing new that I haven't picked up here, but I wish I read it months ago. Also having serious doubts about our MC, he gets great reviews and my IC even said she has heard great things about him, but his methods with me have been questionable and she (IC) was surprised when I told her what is going on in MC. I will catch you all up on it next week, trying not to spend too much mental energy on it right now, got to go pack my son for boy scout camp and plan a fun night for tonight.
Also have to clean the kitchen again, it seems to mess itself up every 10 minutes. I am having fun with the 180's, turning them into a game, its fun to challenge myself and see that I can do better. So far I did a 180 with the inlaws relationship, with socializing at parties (H said I was socially retarded and cling to him at parties, well now I mingle- and wasn't that a mean thing to say???), I look much better (H never complained but I will admit I let myself get frumpy before - now I look much better), and now cleaning the kitchen. Also not reacting emotionally. That is not a 180 yet, more like a 90, working my way up.
Once I get a job in the fall H had better watch out, I am going to be his dream woman and who knows if he will be able to measure up at that point! (OK, I can dream, I think I will be in love with him forever even if he doesn't change at all, even though he has plenty of his own faults- but I always just accepted him.)
