Maybell XXXVI: Moving Day

[Maybell]

Betsey, thank you for all that. Essential oils are awesome! I need to use them more.

I've been feeling like I'm really not doing what I ought to be doing a LOT. This week has been horrible -- childcare issues out the wazoo. I've had the kids four weeks in a row without a break at all and it has made me a HORRIBLE parent. I've gained ten pounds since starting my job and I haven't cooked a proper meal since before we left for vacation. I'm really frustrated with myself.

On the job front, things are also BAD. My boss is NOT GOOD. I'm not going to go into all the gory details but yesterday she REAMED me over three things that were all entirely her doing/fault/dropped ball. Things on which either she and I had worked together and I had done them her way and then she didn't like it, or things that she was supposed to have done that she didn't, forgot about, and then blamed me HUGELY for. She practically foamed at the mouth over it and none of it was my fault AT ALL. (Backed up by my immediate supervisor). This is NOT acceptable to me and I'm starting to think up my exit strategy. One more bit of instability in my life for the time being.

I am grateful for this job because without it I wouldn't have understood so clearly my values, my abilities, or my worth. But I don't think a person should have to stand verbal abuse in her workplace along with low pay, dishonesty, inflexible work conditions (after having been promised flexibility), and a boss who doesn't take her responsibility to provide the benefits she offers seriously.

I am so fired up about all this. But I also feel the load so heavily. My family vacation wasn't really a vacation so much as a performance put on for the sake of my family. I'm SO TIRED and burnt out and I can't wait to get moved into my new house and just rest for a little bit. I hope that actually happens. Things must get better soon, right?????