MLC? Let it Be.

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Thanks for writing Gwen and Job! Great to hear from you both. Gwen, I just got caught up on your sitch - you sure have a full plate right now. I'm sorry the you-know-what's hitting the fan! Praying for a quick and full recovery for you. I know what you were saying about healing from a physical injury, compared to the emotional trauma of BD. I remember thinking many, many times...that I'd rather be having major surgery than be trying to deal with a broken heart. Neither is a cake-walk, but you know how long you will take to heal physically (and you could take medication that was mostly guaranteed to work!), but it's anybody's guess how long it will take us to dig ourselves out of the dark hole we fell into! You will get there. I think I just finally got sick of feeling bad. And two years of being separated had me itching to get out and be totally myself again - no one's wife, just cast aside one day, seemingly out of the blue. Just ME. We have to be our own best friend. Someone told me recently that when you go out and do something alone, you are not doing it by yourself, you are doing it WITH yourself. Words of wisdom, for sure.

When something this difficult happens to us, it makes us stronger, more resilient, so that anything else we come up against sometime down the road? Heck, we know we can handle it, because we made it through this mess. This whole experience has made me a better person - a better friend, a better employee, a better sister, cousin, niece, and aunt, too! We reap those rewards after we face this head-on.

Thanks so much, Job. I can only hope that those who might read this can take away at least a little something that will help them. So many people, here and in my new (bigger!) world, have helped me, and I will never forget that. Even strangers who listened - I came away feeling so fortunate that we crossed paths, and that they took just a few moments to try and boost me up. I may not have been the best DB'er, but I did everything in my power to save my marriage. That's all I could do.

The past is in the past, and I am so grateful for all of my life-long friends, family, and a bunch of new friends too, who helped me get to a better place. I know I'll still have some challenging times, but I got through the really bad ones, so I know these will also pass. I have to believe that I had to endure this to get to something even better down the road.

Blessings to you all -- LiveNow