Thanks Matt! I went out and had a couple of drinks with my friend- sat on her porch, and then when I was good and happy texted H and invited him over to have a drink with us. And my friends' H at that point. He came over (short walk) and was already pretty loaded, and we had a very happy sociable time. Walked home together and he held my hand!
I feel like he is trying. In a limited and "I am depressed and still not sure" way, but trying. I need to work on controlling my emotions. Not react, but act thoughtfully and with care. The wine actually relaxes me - I usually only have one glass - and I don't get drunk or lose control.
