Lol .. hey uR .... I for one thinks the hat looks fabulous on me so .. neener neener
I get what you are saying about the analyzing thing, and I have done that my entire life. I am not obsessed ... well not like I once was but I do find when I update here that's where I go, spilling out my thoughts on exactly what you pointed out .. where I am, she is, where the M is. When I am not posting on this thread I honestly am not dwelling on it .... I typically post here in the mornings, I think back to the day before, reflect and regurgitate all over this table .. wipe my chin and go about my day.
I do appreciate the fuzzy soft 2x4 though
2B ... Thank you for checking in on me.
Last night, not a bad night. As I was about to pick up S, W TM that she made me and S dinner. You all know of the alien abduction theory ... well this is another one .. she NEVER does this .. I did joke and ask her if someone used her phone to TM me, and told her how nice I thought it was. S and I arrive and I was actually greeted warmly with a kiss. Had a nice dinner, cleaned up then W and I did our hmwk. I get little glimpses here and there into what its been like for her for the past 3-4 years. She had shared that when she woke up early that morning she grabbed my hand and she felt thankful, she also shared for the first time in as long as she can recall that she was able to hear an owl, then birds that morning... she said she thinks they always have been there but her mind was so foggy and full of random thoughts she never could just sit with a clear head and listen to her surroundings. I STFU and listened .. validated as we read our letters, seems she has a sense of 'what is important' lately that actually includes me, S and our family at the top of the list which as many of you can relate .... we all take a back of the station wagon seat if we are even allowed in the car.
This morning was good, little tension but she was very willing to talk things out. Seems if there is any mis-step by me ... say accidentally bumping her, she will voice it and I automatically compare things to the A and OM ... something I have to process through, I do not bring it up but in this case she knew. She was very willing to make sure I was good before I left ... a bit more affection than she typically would ever show and the ILY this week have been more frequent.
So .. just plugging along and I continue to read some books that are making more sense as to myself, and how we both affect the R. Rode the bike in to work today ... such therapy is good for my soul.
