West1, thanks for the encouragement. I was just thinking now that it does get easier with time. In fact, I think time is the only thing that can really get us all into a better place. It's taken me these last 2.5 months to begin to come to terms with this, and I think I still have a ways to go.
I ended up replying to W this morning with basically that I could see how bringing up D in person would have been hard, and that while I don't understand fully how we got to this place nor do I think D is the only option, I fully respect her decision and will not stand in her way.
And I feel good about this. I don't care how she responds, or if she responds at all. I've said my peace, and at this point I've fully accepted that I'll be ok without her in my life.
Sure, I'm still open to R, and I'm not necessarily giving up. I'd much rather have her in my life, as I still love her deeply and she's still the most beautiful person I've ever known. M 2.0 for us could be SO good.
However, I think after this news of her filing for D I am finally going to stop hoping for R and begin to truly move forward.
Me:36 W:30 M:2.75 T:7 BD: 4/2015 ILYBNILWY: 5/2015 W Moved Out: 5/2015 W filed for D: 7/2015