Summer of Growth and Acceptance

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Oh, and this is the text I sent H regarding why I asked to chat:


Sorry I keep telling you how I think you are feeling. I need to stop doing that. I can tell that upsets you, which is the last thing I want to do. I am trying to learn, but it takes time.

What I want to talk to you about this weekend is my desire to open up better communication between us. I feel like there are things I am doing that are causing you to shut down. I have been doing a lot thinking while you have been gone and I realized that I have not been doing a good job of listening to what you have been trying to tell me. I am sure that is very frustrating and you might be at loss with trying to talk about it anymore because it's too disappointing when it feels like I ignore your feelings and wishes. I truly would like to understand what you are feeling and thinking better. It is the only way I can learn to fix what I have been doing wrong for the past 10 years. I think I have also been having some pride issues. You probably feel like I should already know after all of these years that you have tried to tell me, but clearly I was just not listening. I am sure it seemed like you were talking to yourself and being ignored. I am truly committed to really listening to what you tell me this time and I hope you can come and be willing to share some of your feelings and thoughts. Anyway, that is what I was hoping to talk about.

Sent it yesterday morning, but he did not respond, which is fine. I wanted to change it up slightly to sound like me, but I think it shows compassion. At least I hope it does.