Wow 25years, I did not realize what I was doing until I went back and read everything a few times. Thank you for being so blunt and honest. I know I am evolving and doing better but I still have those moments where I revert back and struggle with the entire situation. It might not happen 1/3 of the time anymore but sometimes it's there. On all those other times things are great, or conversations are good interactions are good. And I do not feel any resentment. I wonder how long I will struggle with the Flux of emotion.
I wanted to asked you how you manage to keep yourself from always thinking or wondering about someone elses actions. My point is this, I know what will help and hinder my progress, and for the most part I do a good job at staying the course. But then there are those times Like to today. W just got back from a wedding of one of our friends, and I got to watch the dogs, let me say I was super happy about that. I dropped the dogs off to her and I saw a bottle of Don julio 70, in her front seat I simply stated; wow nice bottle someone is gonna be happy. As I put the dogs stuff in her back seat she got out and said. Actually I bought it for you. She said she was shopping and knew I loved don julio and it was on sale. Now try as hard as I might that little thing starts creeping up in my mind questioning everything and why she would do that, etc.. it just confuses me soo soo bad. I know I shouldn't look into it more than she simply bought me my favorite liquor but how....? Thank you so much in advance.
