Thanks guys. Have always thought I needed counselling of some sort. It is so easy to talk about getting the divorce but it is a huge almighty step. He left me, why does he not file? I know we always dwell on the good when a relationship ends but I cannot pin anything bad on my STBX. He was a good husband and is and continues to be the best father in the world.
I know my new partner does not have all of me and he knows it as well. He just does not realise , I have this huge wish to restore my family unit.