Someone smack me with a 2x4 for even contemplating texting W tonight. I haven't done it and I'm fighting the urge to do it.

It's been a tough birthday day...one of the worst ever for me. Difficult keeping a PMA and getting through rehearsal tonight.

I just miss her so much right now. Been awhile since I felt this down. It's been such a great few weeks. I have to be patient I know.

Deep breath. This [censored].

Me: 39y/o male
Wife: 35y/o
1 daughter, 2y/o