MLC? Let it Be.

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Well, now. Wow. Long time no post. I think I can sum up my recent moods in 3 words: Life is good. It really is. In mid-June, I moved out of our house, to an apartment less than a mile away, but what a difference that one lousy mile makes! Being out of that house lifted a HUGE weight off my shoulders. I woke up every day for 2 years with reminders and memories right in my face, first thing every dang morning. Once I was out (as much as I loved that house), it all stopped.

New surroundings, whatever they are (I hate apartment living), meant a brand new outlook. I am SO grateful to be away from x-BIL and SIL too. I wake up nowadays and don't even think about XH for usually many, many hours. And if I do? It doesn't matter. It's just a thought. That's it. No emotion attached. <heavy sigh of relief> <--- this is what I did for days and days after I moved. I wanted to just lie on the floor because I was so mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted, and just SIGH. After about a week and a half, I got moving again, and I haven't stopped! My social life has really picked up and I am having FUN again. Even 6 months ago, I would not have thought that possible. I've had a few good dates, and there are lots more opportunities that keep popping up! Who knew?

And, in the middle of my move I bought a house! It's right where I wanted it to be, with all the features I wanted too - except no front porch. I'm going to have to do something about that!

Meanwhile, I've been running alot again, and I'm in pretty good shape for 52! As it happens, I was out running last week, music up loud, singing, smile on my face, full speed....and here comes XH (BTW he has gained about 40 lb since he left 2 years ago) driving down the road toward me. I just kept going, kept smiling. He drove by yet again about 15 minutes later. I just chuckled to myself and kept going.

One kinda sad note...today I wrapped everything up: signed my vacation home away to him, along with a vacant piece of property we owned just down the road from the vacation home. I mentioned before, it was our little piece of heaven. Someday I plan to have another little getaway. I'll be back there, and maybe with a new H. Ha.

I wanted to post this today because I knew I would get to this point sooner or later, but I didn't think it would be this soon. Almost 2 years to the day. I think if we do the hard work, we can get there sooner. I know all of you still struggling with things can get there soon, too. I cannot describe the freedom I feel. And this feeling is holding...I was afraid it was only going to last a few days and then the gloom would return. I know now that the move was the key. To make that clean break and start over.

I am finally excited about my new life, whatever it holds. I want everyone who reads this to know it's ahead for you too. Not easy, but we will all get there, even if many days you don't believe it! Believe it. And we all deserve it, too. We paid the price, now it's time to get living again.

Prayers for all of you on this board...you can do it! And so MANY thanks to all of you who have written to me over the past couple of years. Every little bit helped. No doubt in my mind. What a journey...and it continues, only now I'm on the upswing at last!

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