The questions and confusion came to clarity today. I don't know what triggered it but I feel like a huge weight was lifted off of my shoulders.
The answer is that even though I still love this woman, I'm done DB'ing. It's not a contradiction at all, that's just what it is.
There will be no more circular talks trying to open communication, no more trying to reason why a person wants you out of her life while she still wears the rings. No more head games.
I'm a person too and I need my own life as well. It's been 2 years of trying to reconcile a marriage that I wasn't happy in either. And that's ok. It's what I wanted to do.
The house will be sold soon. The assets will be split and then there's really nothing left but paperwork.
At this point there are no strategies and tools left in me. I'm simply being honest about my feelings and letting go.
Resentment occurs when we aren't doing what we need to care for ourselves, though we expect others to do it for us.
