Hi RD, it made me feel much better reading your words. You are really kind to me and gives me a so much needed encouragement that I feel lacking at the present moment.
Yes, I am thinking to start saving towards my ticket to Ireland, it could be a good vacation plan since I never been there before and it can be a good vacation if I can chat and ride a bike with you.
I enjoy and respect your friendship, I know it has been hard for you too and that we both have similar situation with our kids. It's yet something out of this world to meet you here and have so much support and comfort on you. Thanks so much!!!
So, XH sent a text after a few days of silence:
"Dear Cira - I was thinking to arrange some time this week to speak with our sons about our divorce arrangements. Have you already talked about, or would you prefer to wait until the court finalizes everything?"
I spoke with the boys and sent an answer:
"I'll be busy the rest of the week. If it works for you, the boys and I will meet with you @ place and time. Please, let me know."
Yes RD, it's unfortunately but I still love this man. I don't even know if it is love, or it is the wound that is inside of me. There is good and bad all mixed up right now. I guess it is normal until I detach totally from this monster.
And I will. I am meeting with my IC today and will meet next week too. I feel I need I the help I can get to collect myself and be in one piece in a few weeks.
I don't feel bad tough, I feel pretty determined in what I need to do to get myself going. The details will be something to work on, but I know what I want for now. At least my life is not suspended in some idiot hope.
When you have a chance, try to update us on how your W is doing after sometime on ADs. Maybe things are getting a tiny bit better by now.
You have no idea how much you help me RD, you are my guard angel throughout this Tsunami.
Lots of hugs and kisses to you and to your kiddos. Love, Cira
