Defacto - Thanks. Yeah, I haven't been posting as much because I guess I'm surviving. I really am trying to do a lot of self work and exploration. I realize that I've taken ww's actions and the death of our M so personally because of what I felt it said about me. That someone that I respected, loved and trusted for 14 years would lie and cheat on me, because that's what I deserved. Because she never loved me and I wasn't worthy of it. That my marriage and family was over because I failed and I wasn't good enough.
Hey Rip, Is this how you feel still or is this what you felt when this all began?
You did not deserve this before and you still don't. It was certainly a wake up call that you've answewd and are making changes towards being a better man.
