Yes - I will get through it. One day at a time and I will wish me w the best. In my heart I know I have done everything I could have. Bottom line is I want her to be happy, I want my kids to be happy and I want to be able to heal. So I am at peace and will do whatever to takes to reach the other side. Maybe it's all the items that are not decided that cause me anxiety. I am praying that in a year from now I will be in a better place with myself and with this horrible situation. I will do my best to be gracious and forgiving of both her and myself. Ultimately what else is there in this life but forgiveness.
I have forgiven her and now work to forgive myself.
Thank you DB board - especially caliguy and Wonka, Bob, Diff and scores of others who have made the painful journey with me. I am eternally grateful and hope to be able to pass it forward.
