So W and I had a bit of a tiff yesterday morning. Maybe was more along the 'testing-tiff' as I will now name these, she went to a 'goto' button, one I had pulled out long ago. So the day was pretty quiet and I read/posted here a bit then dove into my side project. W ended up TM later in the day temp checking, I replied back 45 minutes later .. she immediately replied, I did the return serve with a 'have a nice day I am running into a meeting'
After work I emptied out the storage container, went home .. took a shower and was contemplating a movie but decided to hop on the bike, grabbed dinner and then went to the coast, had a Jamba Juice and called my buddy, then my brother. During this time W TM asking where I was, then tried calling as I was on the other line. I returned the call later and her tone had change considerably, wondering where I was, if I was coming 'home' or going back to 'my place' .... I laugh at the labels on this as I consider my place 'home' and her place ... well 'her place' She asked what I was doing and I told her I was out riding, enjoying the perfect weather she told me to come by after I was done. So I took me sweet-ash time, showed up and grabbed the dog for a walk (She was in the shower). After we talked a bit, I did my end of the hmwk as she relaxed with S. Then we got into a conversation about where she is mentally, she shared that at times she is in the moment, other times she checks out and needs space but feels 'foggy'. She told me about her physical ailments and how they have in many ways become worse over the past year, asked me why. I told her ... being the 'fixer' I have my suspicions and theories but have also learned its better for me to STFU rather than to tell her my thoughts on this. She smiled and said she has noticed I have turned into a wonderful listener but she really wanted to know what I thought. So I shared ... mostly about all the stress she is under, and how that affects her physically and always has, I told her what I seen and truth darted that might only be the surface as she has other areas of her life that I have no idea about that may be adding stress. She asked what I meant as she feels she has been transparent and I simply told her there is stuff going on that I do not think she can figure out let alone share with me .. she nodded and said "See you do get me" ... I chuckled to myself thinking ... 'No, I really do not ... but ok'
Went to bed, I read this new book ... very interesting read as I am about half way through it, the trends and scripts ... so familiar with what I see here and has me thinking so many of us are most likely similar in our make up, hence why we are here fighting for a M that others would drop and move on from. Currently the chapter I am on is the A and the 'whys' behind it ... basically telling us to detach .... this approach has been in place for a very long time ... who knew.
Woke this morning to take the dog for his typical walk and W jumped out of bed and tossed on some yoga pants to join me, was a nice morning.
Work has been great, Looks like the owners are wanting to invest into some new equipment and expand our capabilities. I have been here not even 2 years but things have turned around nicely, we are not 'there' just yet but things have looked very promising and the feed back I am getting from the owners has been more 'action not words' based.
