I thought about that some time back, and yeah there is a bit of truth there. Its like a game of chicken, I found myself refusing to give that side of me to her ... like holding it hostage till I see she is willing to fill my needs, then I realized its just this type of vicious cycle that ended us up 'here'. So I have gone back and reviewed my DB strategy ... looking at this in a PMA with no expectations kind of way. I would rather be happy regardless, as easy as it is to not be that way with her ... it was not who I am so that has been changing, as well as her behavior .... do what works has been key in all this.
So currently I have been more PMA ... less PDA, detached (update later on) and basically still of the mind 'Cali 2.0 is pretty darn good ... and only getting better, this train is frimly on his tracks at the moment' toss in a wooohoooo.
