Hi Ghost, I know it's tough but try to understand that any changes you make will not stick if they are motivated by getting a reaction from your W. But in order for her to see these changes as authentic, they need to really take hold in your life for a long time.
As far as how to stop your pleading to W, you have to come to the realization that nothing you say right now will have any impact on how your W feels. Your W will have to come to her conclusions by herself. I would think constantly stating your case makes you appear weak and unattractive to your W.
Me:35 W:30 D:4 S:1 Bomb: 01/08/15, discovered EA & PA In House Separation: 01/14/15 W moves out: 04/05/15 I tell OM's W about A: 04/15/15 W serves D papers: 06/19/15 Mediation: 09/16/15 D final: 12/01/15