Advice Welcome, separating and W moving out soon..

[jedi]

I was posting from my phone yesterday so didn't feel like typing the back story out, but figured I would now just for more info and journaling sake.

W was actually the one who reached out to me to confirm the tentative lunch, and so I figured I should consider that a positive and why not meet up. Had she really not wanted to see me I think she would have just told me to send her pile of mail.

To clarify on the post lunch texts, she initiated this shortly after lunch and sent 3 or 4 about random stuff but the last one was thanking me for lunch. About 90 minutes later was when I sent back the text saying thanks for meeting me and that I enjoyed the time together. She replied more or less immediately that she enjoyed it as well.

So, all of the above (minus that tiny bit of pursual on my part) all seemed to be positive to me, and I left feeling pretty good about it all, albeit missing her more than I had in a long time.

The texts about filing for D came about an hour later. She had filed prior to yesterday, but I'm not sure exactly when. Long enough for the courts to have set the date and send the paperwork to her.

I have still not responded, but she did send another text late last night saying her D texts may have come across insensitive and that she was sorry for this.

I think based on her overall tone (yes, mindreading here) that she does care enough that she knows this hurts me, and doesn't like doing that. Clearly this doesn't change her path, and I know this also doesn't change mine. Still, it's sad when someone still cares but the pain of trying/staying is more than the pain of leaving.

So, where am I headed now? I feel I need to reply at some point so as to not be rude, but my initial gut need to do this has waned. I still am thinking of something like this, but will let this marinate for a while longer before sending.

W,
I still do not feel that D is the only option at this point, but I respect your decision and have put the date on my calendar.