Life as a new LBS

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Thanks Matt. I am not proud of my actions in hindsight. I think I am trying to move too quickly with my eye on the end prize. I will put any dating ideas on hold.

No real news to report. I found out from her sister's fiancee that she has been hitting the club scene pretty hard. That really didn't bother me because I know what comes along with her trying to live the single life, I "deprived her" of. They also suspect she is seeing another man but have no proof. He suggested I hire a private detective but I don't plan on going that route right now. I will probably get answers I don't want to hear and it will be expensive, as well as a violation of her privacy.

I also found out some interesting information from a friend of mine who has a mutual friend of my wife. It kind of shed some light on the situation. My wife was basically egged on to leave me by this woman who is almost 50 and thinks she is 22. She has been described by several people as "toxic". She has succeeded in getting several women to leave their husband to join her in the single life to make herself feel better. My wife has had several falling outs with this woman but they reconnected a little more then a month before she left. This woman also left her husband over a year ago. My wife's family encouraged her over a year ago to stay away from this woman, which she had done until recently.

I found a post she had put on my wife's FB wall toward the end of April. It said "Once you have true feelings for someone, it will always be there. You may not like them anymore, but you still care." The headline of the post said "Weren't we just discussing this? Lol Luv u" My wife responded, "You are absolutely right in that this relates to friendships as well! Sometimes we have to just let people go!" I connected the dots after I found out my wife moved half of our furniture into this woman's home.

I know I can't talk to my wife about this woman because this woman is propping her up in her new single life. It will just piss her off. I haven't spoken to my wife since our Friday date. I am doing well on that front. I am now wondering if she will even contact me about our weekly get together. She had said either Wednesday or Friday. I am not going to text her if she doesn't, which I suspect she won't. I am okay with that though because I have made plans this week on several different days with friends, which will probably conflict with that anyway.

I seem to be dreaming daily about my wife. It usually involves me finding out she is with another man and I beat the crap out of the guy. Ugh, she is even haunting me in my dreams now.