HUDDY... yeah, disturbing letter. She is a preying mantis, a "mate poacher," and the "date" turned out to be very laid back. Even if there were more overt flirting, it would be a going nowhere situation. She's 16 years younger than me. Her mom? Four years older... yeesh...

MATT... Thanks for your kind words, as always. This is really just going to be a job for now, I think. When I'm in a better place mentally and emotionally, I will need to figure out what to do with the rest of my life.

CALI... you are very right... I am not detached enough. She was here tonight, and again kept asking what I know that she doesn't know. On and on... "you don't know anything, you're just making things up, trying to keep me, etc. etc." We got into it... I just don't know how to stop these arguments when she starts them. Sometime, like tonight, I think she does want me to disappear. The thought of losing me seems to be less of an issue for her... at least for now.

I know I can't make decisions based on her reactions. But today was a long and sad day where I just really missed what we had, and I'm trying so hard to detach and just work on me. Sometimes, that's easier said than done.

Me: 46 Her: 41
M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18
3/26 W and I meet OW
BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring
W goes to stay with OW 6/26
NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16
I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19