Summer of Growth and Acceptance

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Thank you, Job. I really appreciate your care to my situation and your advice means a great deal to me. I am not sure what is going on, but all of a sudden I feel like my emotions are at an extreme. Which is hard on me because it is not in my nature to be so over emotional. I think it is because I am feeling so disconnected from my H and fear that the more that grows, the harder it will be for it to be repaired. Again, I am fearing letting go and I feel like this entire thing is out of my control. So I clearly am not detached enough.

In your opinion am I being unreasonable with any of these requests and will any of it do more harm than help? The only one I am hesitant to discuss is the A as bringing its up in the past has gotten me know nowhere. I think it is actually the lying that is getting to me more than the A itself.

It is just hard cohabiting with an MLCer. How long did you live with yours? To answer your question from earlier, I really don't want him to move out, but at the same time, I want a healthy living space. I know this time is about working on me, but find it hard when the rollercoaster is running in my home. I am just feeling very overwhelmed by the situation lately. I know that I need patience and to focus on today, but I do get panic attacks/anxiety by the thought of this talking years to sort out.

Thank you, again. I be starting my next thread in the MLC section.