I want to write him but to what purpose? I don't want him back in my life, I know he was damaging.
To tell him I didn't cheat as he keeps asking others who I'm with - but am Aware he has.
To tell him I know he's said he didn't want this divorce, doesn't understand it. To tell him that's not the last I heard from him. Because the last, after the abuse and being 'done' was - I'm so much better off without you.
To tell him there is still time if he wished to look inside...(but can I live without trust? With heartbreak? I don't think so...)
To tell him I'm angry. That I was there for him through worse, sickness, we were family and this is still horrifying to me that someone who claimed to love me could so carelessly toss it like it was nothing without a look back.
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
