[BrightFuture]

Bea, you didn’t upset me. Your posts are very important to me. I think I just got frustrated that I cannot make my point across. I think the mail subject got out of control. I think my point is that because H has his mail sent to my house tell something about him not willing to cut that last tie. So, I will leave it at that, since obviously I cannot express all my feeling about that in the right way.

Toots, thanks for the kind words.

Bright,
I am actually hesitant to come here to post to you after your response to Bea's posting.

Job, this made me cry for a good 30 min. Even my dog left the room, because he could not handle that anymore. What is it that I said that was so horrible? I didn’t blame anyone, I just expressed my feelings. I will hold on to them next time, I will be nicer…

Yes, the mail is a reminder and also an indication that he cannot cut it yet either. And I actually posted a lot about the business and vacation home a lot too. The fact that my things are still at the vacation home, etc. Yes, the mail is simpler subject to resolve, I get it.

Job, I don’t talk about H with my friends and family anymore. I come here instead. And I don’t post all the positive things that happen to me either. I tend to post when I hurt. So, I don’t think that I agree that there is no moving forward in my sitch. But… I just think I’m just a bad poster. This is all it is.

Sorry everyone… I know that everybody frustrated/bored, etc. with my sitch… And I seem to not be able to make that final decision… Stupid me.., I’m hopeless, I admit it…

I don’t think I posted anything so bad to upset other people. I was just questioning my ability to convey my feelings and thoughts, and I think I suck at it…

FY, thank you so much. I always feel so much better after reading your posts. I just don’t think I can do what you suggest yet. I don’t feel H is open to anything like that. So, I just continue… On my own… I do realize that even people on this board are fed-up with my sitch.

And I appreciate all the responses. I’m sorry if I offended anybody. Sorry for the messed up post again.