After our talk today, I believe your intention is to end your relationship with Dif after the boys leave. Yeah, PLANT that darn seed in W's mind that leaving Diff is the BEST path forward. Yesss...let's hit the TNT button. I'm not really sure, so if that isn’t true, let me know! Oops...the opening line was just pure evil. Better show my "good-girl" side just to keep things balanced here. I don’t want to be in a relationship with you if it isn’t. That is hard to say, BELIEVE ME, but is the right thing to do if you won’t be leaving Dif within 2-3 months. If I compromise my values, I won’t be someone worth your love or mine. Gee, I ought to show that I am a neutral and concerned friend that is supportive of W. Nah, let me just serve W some more Koolaid here with the carrot dangling enticement of forbidden fruit here. Meet Eve and the snake.
If it IS true that you intend to leave Dif, I would like to suggest you start changing your interactions with her as soon as possible so she begins to feel some distancing. We know that you DO plan to leave Diff. Let's cut to the chase here. You don't want to mess with me so you better listen to what I say here. It isn’t fair to her to go on talking about future plans together and act as if the two of you have a solid relationship if you don’t. That sets her up for a bigger fall – and I think will make you feel even worse. If my intention was to leave someone, but to wait for a better time before doing it, I would try to treat who I was leaving more like a very close friend instead of a partner. Better stop having sex with the W! No way, no how! It is all about US. This could be especially hard because your lives are deeply intertwined and you two have some very comfortable habits only couples have. Nope. Not that hard now that I've dangled the forbidden fruit in front of your eyes.
As much as I want to see you as often as possible, I don’t think we should plan any more things after this week that involve all 3 of us. Let me tease you a bit here. Let me play hard to get here. That feels wrong. Nah, my moral compass has long passed the cracking point here. Nevermind..pay no heed to that "moral high ground" comment. When the 3 of us are together, there will always be an elephant in the room, one that Dif may feel but not understand. Translation: There will be sexual tension between us and we don't want Diff to see that! No. It is so special that only two of us can understand each other. And if she does find out later we were “pretending” to just be friends, she will be deeply hurt and angry. Don't worry. We will just play "pull the wool over Diff's eyes" game here. Follow my lead, baby. I'll take care of it for you. I still want to see you as much as I can, but I also know that is difficult. I want to F@CK you so bad, but Diff is in the way. Ya know...
I dream about an incredible life with you, E! Oohh...la la. Our life together will be rainbows, cotton candy, and popsciles! No laundry, no bills, no conflicts, no stress. And if that is to be, I don’t want to do anything now we will regret. Yeah, come on....cut your arm off. Ignore the blood. Heck, I like drinking blood. Just do it!Yes, one could say we are already having an emotional affair. I can live with that without feeling bad about myself because I know I can’t change my feelings… but I CAN change my behavior. Forget about the "moral high ground", I just want to f@ck your brains. My behavior is screaming "Eat the darn apple!!!" As excruciatingly difficult as it is, I don’t believe we should touch beyond holding hands until we are truly free to be in a relationship and celebrate that. Gosh, my halo just fell off. I better pick it up so I can come across as an innocent Goody-Good Two Shoes Sally for appearances sake. I can wait 2-3 months for that day, E. Jeez, we 'have to' maintain this fake facade to the world that we are two upstanding citizens. Then we can rip apart your family because we're two uncontrollable bunnies. And if it comes, I will be the happiest woman on earth and do everything in my power to make you happy too! Ohh...I am so glad you decided to take a bite of that poisoned apple. I will do everything to feed into that addiction. No worries. My motto is this: "making my customers happy."
