Updates: after everything that's been going on, I decided to have a weekend largely to myself. Work out, do errands, go to Buddhist temple, watch movies, cook. Enjoy being by myself. Interestingly enough, it was nice. Right now, I'm not scared of being alone anymore, I'm starting to embrace it. Also, I'm forcing myself to get to know more people and increase my social circle.

I did get invited to a pool party yesterday with a live band and open bar. It was a great time. I felt confident, as I'm in the best shape of my life. My friend that invited me couldn't stop commenting about how great I looked, it felt good.

Finally I spoke with ww today, she called me because oldest son wasn't feeling well, he's better now. She talked about him, then went on to say she has a box of my things to pick up and how she's exhausted due to work and trying to get the house ready to sell, so all she wants to do is sleep. I just listened and validated where I could.

The thing is, that conversation didn't trigger me like it normally would have. I was glad she called about our son and I got to speak to both boys, that was nice. But normally convos about signs of her moving on, house for sale, pick up my things, etc would leave me in a bad place. I'm actually good.

Not sure if this is what it feels like to have the rope dropped, if I'm moving on or both. But, I like me. I'm a fun guy and I'm enjoying showing that to people and being around others who appreciate it.


M-33
W-33
S-11, S-8
M-11, T-14
BD - 12/26, Divorce Filing and admits to affair (her) 4/18
I moved out 5/23