seperated 4 months, its now 9 months, oh and om

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I rambled a lot today, focused on w and om. There is no going back for me, so it's time to heal myself and become whole. This is something women are better at I gather. So many layers to strip away, so much to forgive myself for. So much to unlearn.
These nine months feel like a dream still. Maybe it was, I don't know what is real at this point. I don't know where to begin, maybe I have, I need to be kinder to myself, I am not so bad.