seperated 4 months, its now 9 months, oh and om

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I spoke with my w today, told her how hurt I was about om, that I doing the work for me and d regardless of outcome for us.
She said she told me about om so I wouldnt find out elsewhere, and so I dont wait for her. She said she felt like these last 3 months I have been waiting for her, trying to charm her, and maybe not doing what I need for myself and she was right, I didnt tell her she was right. She is intuitive, smart, and knows me.
Good things she told me was that she sees more clarity in me and that I seem sober, not abstinent. She also said that we are on square one, so maybe we develop something and get to further squares down the line.
I need to work hard on myself, gal, stop trying to charm her and behave like I would being on square one. I will build the friendship, but maintain some distance, and be mysterious. I will become someone only a fool would leave.