Sounds like you have fallen into crisis. Can you get help IRL.
Booze isn't helping you, please stop.
V
Hi Vanilla.
What sort of help are you suggesting? I've been in therapy twice a week since last year. Is there something that can help more? I've been trying to keep busy and trying random new activities, but it doesn't appear to be an effective method to keep the mind from circling right back to the reasons for this busyness. I've rock climbed, bowled, hiked, skied, walked on the beach, went through various calibers at the range, went on dates and to parties, flew in a chopper, etc. Compared to how I was living a year ago, the uptick in actually going out is such that there isn't even a way to compare. What else should I be doing? There are only so many hours in a day.
And you're right that the booze isn't helping. At least, not in any way that improves functioning. It does let me sleep through the night, though. Otherwise I'd have to take meds. Is that any better?
Me:31 W:31 D:6 T: 9/2001 M: 1/2009 W unhappy: 6/14 W moves to parents: 10/14 W wants D (angry): 12/14 W okay w/ S: 2/15 W wants D (calm): 2/15 W gets new job/place: 3/15 W admits PA, suggests MC: 8/15
