I see "being kind to myself" as giving myself permission to feel what I feel at any given time and know its ok.
It is about giving myself time out from being a rock to others and focus on just me. To think, to feel and to be calm. I love walking by the sea, it settles me in a way that words cannot describe. I also do things I would have never done when with my h, like snuggle up in bed all afternoon with tea and junk food watching old movies.
Gwen, its a process, I know you know that, what you are going through and feeling is ok. Please know that you are a beautiful, talented, kind, strong and inspirational lady FACT, don't let what your crazy h has done to you devalue those facts, live them, be them and know you ARE valued.