[BrightFuture]

Bea, so, you are suggesting that I cut that last thing that still might connect me to H and him to me? It seems that this is what all the people here want me to do. Do I see it in a different light? Don’t I get something that everyone here tries to convey to me? I might as well just be completely done here. I might come to this conclusion on my own anyway. But, it is just so confusing to me. Do I have rose covered glasses on me? And people here just see what I cannot? I just have to cut every single piece of connection with H… because it is hopeless?... And then what?...

Back to my point… Why am I here? I’m looking for the support and validation that I cannot get from my friends and family anymore. I have to pretend with them. I thought I could put my real feelings here. But... I get the same kind of advice I already get from other people in my life. Cut it off… move on… live your own life… forget about H… don’t have bad feelings… move on… Sure, I can do that... When the time is right for me…