TLEE86 Part IV

[TLEE86]

She said she's going to file and talk to an attorney next week. That I can keep whatever is left here and that she will go and get our truck appraised next week and trade it in. That there is nothing left to discuss. And that I know why she's not talking to me lately.

I am absolutely crushed. On the floor, balling my eyes out crushed. I just don't understand. She really is in it for the money...
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This started because I saw she transferred money out of our accounts so I texted her and told her that I wont support her financially anymore because she's living with someone else and she's got a job. That I have a to draw a boundary of self-respect for me.

She texts back and basically says that I can either file and send her the paperwork or deduct the car payment from the amount the Army says i owe her every month.

I write her and tell her that I am not going to file because its not what I want but if she wants to that its her choice. That this is no longer about her finding herself, but that she is living with someone else and that I am not going to pay for that. That I am choosing to help her because she's my W and I love her. But I wont do it anymore because she's with someone else.

And she gets even more nasty and says that theres nothing left for us to talk about, that if i don't want to talk to a lawyer she will and that we can split it 50/50. That I can keep whatever is left here, and that she will get her car appraised next week. That I know why she's not talking to me (because talking to me supposedly brings her down).

I try calling her and no answer. So I text her and just say I'm sorry for everything, that i have tried to be what she needed me to be the last 10 months..that somehow even though she has called me every time she had an issue or was upset for the last 10months, I was always there for her, that I am still the bad guy somehow. That this isn't what I want. And maybe one day she can see that.
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I am so crushed right now. She put her ring on 3 weeks ago...she told me 2 weeks ago how good of a person i was to her...i comforted her when she started this new job 2 weeks ago...but what happened the last 2 weeks? how did i get to be the bad guy again? Was she really just in it for the money? Her mom even told me that she wasn't 100% committed to this guy, that she knows he cant financially be stable and support her...that she debated on packing her bags and coming to Texas...

Ive tried so hard the past 10 months...done more than what I think the average person would do...but somehow Im still the bad guy...I was always there for her. Always. But now...im still the one that drags her down...

I knew she was going to throw a fit when I took away the $...that she will probably play the D card...but how does she get to be so cold...so mean...this is the same wife that would face time me or Skype a few months ago...what changed....im just a mess right now...i cant even....i think its really over.... =(