A friend got mad at me for feeling defeated. I think we are allowed to feel defeated 48 hours into this mess - 48 days is a different story. She may not be my friend anymore because I said I am human. For decades I tried to be the best wife, mom, daughter and volunteer. I can't do that right now. Yes I still worry I may get stuck here in the land of bitter and depressed but I have always had faith in the bigger picture. Bones heal, this is a set back but I have all the most important things in my life.
I agree with the others in this thread. But wanted to add that your "friends" want you to be well. That is not the same as understanding. And honestly, if you cannot be honest with your friends, then with whom can you be? You never really know until you know - so it makes sense to be you and be real.
As for the bitterness. A few days of feeling down are not the same as bitterness, Gwen. You hit on that with the 48 hour thing. But be kind to yourself and realize that it has no real time boundaries. You stop being that way when you're ready. Not a second before. Just like the sky is blue, you can't change that until you're ready.
For me, I prefer the rose-colored bi-focals. They help me see both the positive sides of things and the reality. They both exist at the same time.
Bitter or better? Time will tell on that one, but my money is that you'll be better long-term.
Heal quickly.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
