Uncertain and vexing times - must stay on DB point

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Thanks V - makes sense. Maybe we'll get a drink and some food tomorrow afternoon when my mom takes the kids - if not, I'll get a drink. GAL activity tonight with a friend. She already knows though - and supports me going out. Feels like half of the GAL work of just going out mysteriously has been lost on this activity - but whatever, I'll go have fun.

LOL ... talk to me when you have 17 going on 18 like I do

CaliGuy! Haha! Well, you've certainly done the work. So happy it's paying off for you.

I got my Tat during the crisis aswell. Was for me .. actually looking back I did a few things I always wanted to do and W would have none of it ... Tat, Harley ... GAL ... GAL.

Ya, my W has never held me back - I've done that to myself. i think GAL is going to be good for me to get out and start living for me again as well as create that sense of interest in W for me.

Good approach, she knows where you are and if she wants she can swing by ... if not .. no big .. those tats will be stuck on you forever .. not like she will never have a chance to see them.

Tats came out well. I went on my own. W and D8 showed up right before they started and got to see the outline. They stayed for the first 10 mins, then went to dinner. Stopped by on their way home. W said she'd come back after the girls were in bed. Texted 30mins before we finished that she was so tired and didn't think she'd make it back. I didn't respond (didn't actually see it until after we'd finished). So I went back home, had a snack, cleaned up went to bed.

In the morning she said sorry she didn't make it back. I dismissed it saying it was totally fine, no problem. She then saw them and was surprised how big they were. I think she's still a bit shocked I went through with it!

She went to pick up breakfast as I was leaving for work. She came over to me and gave me a hug and I turne dmy face so she could cheek kiss me, which she did. She then looked at me and kissed me on the lips. Then came in for a slightly more passionate kiss. I let her kiss me, then pulled back, said have a nice day and strolled over to my car.

I'm sure this was more temp checking - I hope I played it right.

As far as work ..
...Right now ... she is not listening to you yet.

ya, it's so hard to balance - particularly when I'd rather be with the kids. It's just the industry there is no way around it sometimes. It also [censored] being on the upswing in my career having just finished a project most people would have killed for to move onto an even larger project that is pretty unbelievable. I should be having the time of my life and now it's just a struggle and grind to get through each day. I am a bit resentful of that.

In any case, you're right, she's not listening - so I can do what I need to do for me and the kids and when she starts listening - perhaps she'll realize the sacrifices I've made.