One thing I'm feeling good about tonight as I drink the wine with the aftertaste of integrity is that this is probably the first time she's headed off to spend the night with the OW where I haven't left the bad taste of bitterness in her mouth. There can be no drama to discuss with the OW about how unreasonable I am, or angry, or whatever. Ever since Tuesday, our interactions have been at worst civil, at best warm.

Seeds of doubt about the integrity of the OW have been planted.

She has felt guilty about how she's treated me.

And last night was emblematic of everything that was ever right, good, and attractive about our M.

She may be playing the game well with the OW tonight, professing her love and whatever other nonsense serves the purpose. But I know there is conflict going on somewhere inside that head and that heart. As there should be.

I really, really, REALLY want to be a success story on this board. If so, I won't ever leave so that I can pay it forward. Till then, I will keep praying and DBing.

(And I'm done with my wine, off to read and see if I can comment on other sitches, then hit the sack.)

Me: 46 Her: 41
M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18
3/26 W and I meet OW
BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring
W goes to stay with OW 6/26
NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16
I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19