It's Been Two Months Today

[DifRent]

I appreciate the encouragement, Cali. There's not much sneaking around, though. She doesn't hesitate to text in my presence, is very clear about "dinner plans" and "not coming home tonight." As my son put it to a friend rather angrily over a month ago, "She's doing this [censored] right in front of my mother, and I can't believe how disrespectful she is." I don't know how much of a rush she's getting from the illicit nature of this. Really, she considers our relationship dead, and just wants to have a new life with her "new partner." They long for something more normal and accepted. She would prefer, from what I can tell, to just replace the old relationship with the new one, and for the new one to come across as completely respectable - a choice made in order to make herself happy, and what's wrong with that?

All that being said, I do agree enough seeds have been planted this week for her to begin to question whether in the long run this new relationship is really what she wants. In the meantime, it's Friday night... which means she's out having a fabulous dinner downtown and I'm home drinking wine alone. At least I'm not eating leftovers or doing laundry.