have i been making mistakes too long

[tkdmme]

Desp13,
Thanks for your reply. It is hard. Very hard. I keep thinking I'm going to wake up from a bad deem but it never stops. I guess it can't last forever. I'm just praying that I can do and say the right things. I haven't been doing to we'll so far. I'm trying to detatch. I'm not sure if I should attend family functions or not. Her birthday is coming up and I'm not sure whether to have a party for her or not. Whatever I Do it will be wrong in her eyes. Hang in there. I'm sure trying.