If you read my thread you will probably understand I tried rebuilding with my WH at least 4 or 5 times. Each sweet cycle went deeper and cut more. Until eventually NC by V to try and cut the bond.
I know that my R with WH is very damaging to me even if I really want to stand. Why be attracted to an R with someone so abusive? I don't know, I love my WH but I know an R with him will destroy me, my fins, my friendships and my sanity. I have barely survived this round.
Do I want to D, not at all but I will not be abused anymore.
Almost all targets of abusers suffer with this, it weakens over time and NC.
Abuse is very complex and difficult to break away from for targets. Many abusers abuse because they like it and it gets them what they want, they don't want or feel the need to change. Others can and do.
Hang in there Z, do what is best for you, whatever you want to do is your choice.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
