It's Been Two Months Today

[DifRent]

Wonka and Cali, thanks as always for your wisdom and support.

I agree, really feel it in my gut that yes, she has to lose me before she completely realizes what she had with me. She is working overtime to impress and please the OW, who is needy and clingy and constantly doing social things. I know my W is enjoying the change of pace right now, and the dopamine high of course, but it's not a sustainable pace for her. Intellectually, I get all this. It's my heart that has trouble.

We went out this morning and looked at a property together. On the way back, she informed me that she has "dinner plans," and asked if I had dinner plans. I said I missed our Albanian pizza Friday nights - and you know, a few weeks ago, I think she would have dismissed or ignored that comment (or suggested I eat leftovers or do laundry!) But today, she said, "Oh. Maybe we can have the boys over sometime next week and do Albanian pizza." I think she enjoyed our family dinner last night, up until we got into "God talk," anyway.

She also complimented me on how I look today, and right now in fact, she is sitting beside me at the kitchen counter working on her laptop, instead of upstairs in the office. She's never done this before. Trying not to read into things, but if she has come back to enjoying my presence, I'm going to make it a presence that she misses deeply when she's gone.