Dif .... you can also look at it this way. That A, in the beginning, see it for what it is, forbidden fruit, it was all hot and exciting, secretive, not allowed because .... well it was wrong.
As the A runs its course, yes no M can compete with those new highs, the freshness of it all, the rush and excitement that comes with it, we experienced those feelings early on in our relationships ....thing is, that A is the rabbit, and the M is the turtle, the M slow and steady for several YEARS ... that A rush ... simply months and as it dies the WAS and OP will try and try to recreate that rush ... but inevitably fail.
My W's A began in Feb13 with OM emailing her that he was leaving his W, out M was ripe for the taking at that time as I had lost my father in 2012 and still struggling, seems the EA started blossoming Jul13, BD Sep13 and sep Nov13. High A rush from there but in my case I lost count ... atleast 6 break ups (maybe more) between Jan14 and Jan15. I made a gang of mistakes as I did not find this place till Aug14.
When I gave my M and W to God, granted it was painfully hard, but at that point in my life it was either let go or sink with the ship. Gave her to God, DB'd and rediscovered Cali, created Cali 2.0 and looking back, I think I needed the journey ... as hurtful and painful as it has been, not that I would want to do it over .. but it was necessary.
No true growth comes without suffering. When you suffer enough you change ... its evolution of the soul and spirit.
Trust Dif, there are little bread crumbs there that I see, but I really think she has to lose you to realize what a huge mistake she is making. You just need to trust this will work out with or without W .. you will be ok regardless.
