Mediator reported he sounded angry and confused prior to signing for about half an hour, but thst he would since it is what I wsnted.

My bff reported matter of factness. Him cgoing on about how he signed, bc I always get what I focus on, and sometimes I can't help focusing on my fears, Sonny Bono analogy. And then some 'poor me' I've lost all my friends stuff. Never once pulled the same confusion/anger card he'd done with mediator.

I almost reached out last night to tell him this isn't what I want. But didn't. There's not a bone in his body that really cares. I can look at my recordings and see how he's treated me and see that.


Mid 30's
Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH
D 9/15; NC forever on

You can't DR your way out of abuse.