WAS or what (2)

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Rereading DR, I realize I have been knocking any good signs too much. The book warns about overlooking small signs of change and of their importance in encouraging us to continue. You have to allow yourself to be encouraged by small signs as you need to feel hope. Michele goes on to warn that these are not gaurantees but for now focus on the positive.

Great words of wisdom from Michelle, summed up by her mantra: little steps are big deals.

I am also reading 5LL and it supports what I thought that my w seems to have increased her acts of service towards me. If that is her ll does that mean she will be most receptive to acts of service than the other 4ll? I know the answer is in the book, but until I get to finish reading it I thought I would ask ye who have already read it.

The boys and their cousin asked W to have s disco at the house yesterday evening. On short notice she did great job organising a stand up finger food meal. I got home and had to repair lights for it, which I had intended doing hshortly. The kids ask if we were going to disguise ourselves too. Said we were OK like that but at last minute she went and put on a stunning dress. What a sight esp when she dansed. I resisted touching. Wanted to though. It was fun.

Afterwards W said she was tired so didn't want to do stuff outside. I went anyway and eventually she checked in to see what I was doing.

Tonight BBQ with her friends incl Mr inappropriate. I am OK with that and am nit stressed by it, so progress for me, I guess. I have stocked up on STFU pills, PMA tablets and am fairly sure I can at least act fun but maybe even be fun.

The weekend away is postponed until next weekend, so I have a big project on at the house. That is what I started last night. Actually suits me better so glad SIL couldn't make it this weekend.