Never thought I would make it, but thanks to all of you, it's been a much smoother ride.
Been separated now almost a month...living with my parents. Getting my head screwed back on straight. Developing a PMA. Keeping things in perspective. Figuring out which way to go. Loving every minute with my daughter.
As for W, I'm cautiously optimistic. Her emotional state is changed. Somewhere in between who she was and what she became during her EA (PA?). I have no idea if it's still active or not. If it is, it is deep, deep underground.
She's been open to spending time together - with and without D2. We spent a nice weekend for the 4th at a festival, D2 riding rides, a pony, then dinner together. Spent Sunday together at the pool, and then at the house. Tough to go back to my parents house when I have good days like that.
We had lunch together yesterday. No R talk at all for awhile now. W is taking to to dinner and then out for drinks and singing for my birthday on Saturday night. My parents will watch D2. Hoping to keep the PMA and resist any alcohol influenced interactions.
W has been organizing the house/garage, focusing mainly on my clutter, which I was too pig - headed to do myself. Whether it was depression induced, stubbornness, or laziness doesn't matter. I should have been a better person to her. Working on that, through changes to myself and self-reflection. I apologized a deep, sincere apology to her for that a few days ago. She replied with "thank you for the apology". I hurt her badly I know. It doesn't excuse an EA (PA?), but I don't know how to approach that right now, so I'm taking my chances that it's over, or at least that she's having second thoughts about it and is willing to work on this. Won't know until she tells me I guess.
I've become addicted to self improvement. It sounds funny, but I enjoy falling asleep every night reading something that directly improves ME.
Any vets wanna chime in with suggestions moving forward? Should I "trust but verify" as Ronnie so eloquently put it? It's important that we are working together with our Ds best interests at heart.
There is still this nagging feeling that something isn't right...that I'm about to get blindsided with D papers, or that this is a test, or an attempt to just keep peace until Armageddon.
I know we aren't "piecing", and can't even think about it until the A situation is addressed and confirmed over, but other than that, and the fact that it hasn't been long enough of positive interactions, I feel that there is true hope for R at some point.
I miss my best friend so much. That slipped out...
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