Well, forgiveness for me was modelled by my very Christian( Free methodist)upbringing, always forgive freely, without holding a grudge, but I seem to have been holding many grudges.
She was raised Catholic.
I have sincerely apologized and asked for her forgiveness before she had moved out. She said she had forgiven me, and I accepted that it wouldn't stop her hurting or change her mind.
The changes I have been working on have really changed my perception of expectation of sex and intimacy and desire, namely stopping porn completely, finding healthy outlets for my frustration, accepting that it is OK if she is uncomfortable with something instead of pressuring. I would rather not have sex and pressure her that way and have her love, and respect, affection and admiration. Thinking of my relationship and our marriage as my hobby that gives me great pleasure to figure out and make better, and not be disappointed and look for something else when I am. Taking her as preference over an easily achievable or readily available replacement.
Not sure what this means "and btw, most wives who are ml on almost a daily basis (did I read that right?)"
Me:35 W:37; S17 D15 D15 D1 D1 M:9 years T:11 BD 5/2/15 W moved out with her D15 our D1 D1 6/15/16 W filed for divorce 6/19/15 W moved back in 7/11/15
