seperated 4 months, its now 9 months, oh and om

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One thing my w and I were bad at was communication, more my fault. So these last 9 months my communication has been all over the place, trying to get her to r, shutting down, and now friends. I dont think I can go back to shutting down. I dont know how long ea is going on, if and when it became pa. I dont know if she started out as a was or a ww.
My ww hasnt mentioned d or the seperation agreement in eleven weeks, but this could be because it benefits her at this point not to, she will have to pay me support.
We dont talk about serious things as far as d as far as how she is dealing.
The whole thing feels like tip-toeing in hell. I think I have to open up to her in some way. My sitch is the worst one as far as the ones I read. I feel like we could be on Dr. Phil at this point.
Time is my gift, for me to work on me, I get that. Is it in anyway a good sign that we have not been signed any paperwork yet even though it seemed like w wanted it done.
Do what works. I think the friend thing brought us closer, and when I filled out budget sheet 11 weeks ago she sees that I am not resisting the seperation agreement anymore. When she told me about om, I told her I want her to be happy, she said that was sweet.
So its 5 days since she told me about om, and we only emailed once about d camp info. She thinks I will avoid her now, she is not emailing me like she did before with silly, funny things. I have to communicate to her soon. Something has to give.