Help and support appreciated

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I would tend to agree with your points on this Toots.

The needs that were not being met were u realistic expectations from being sexually active at an early age and viewing porn and being an exhibitionist for 23 years. I would trade all the sex except for what caused my twins and children to be born for the love and affection and trust and admiration of my wife
There is a lot of self introspection that still needs to occur. One of which has been handled quite effectively, and that was my addiction to pornography. I have been clean for 11 weeks, without even a desire to look at or engage in those behaviors after realizing that it was affecting my work, and my life.

Being more mindful of my thoughts and feelings, being more assertive with how I feel and setting boundaries and respecting boundaries.

I know that there is much to prove, and much I need to change about myself.

I am experiencing and feeling my emotions and how I react to others,instead of stuffing those inside or cutting them out completely to not have to deal with them.

Learning and improving my communication skills, empathizing and validation.

Returning to a church that is led by an old pastor friend of mine, as well as talking regularly with my cousin who is a pastor. For 24 years was a big part of my life, and restoring my moral compass, as well as my faith, and forgiving myself after being asked to be forgiven by my God.