TLEE86 Part IV

[TLEE86]

Im here...very frustrated but here.

So I sent her the email about cutting her off. Worded it very carefully and then followed up with a text to say I sent you an email, please read it- since she doesnt check her email super often.

She sends me a text today, not even addressing the finances (i don't even know if she read it) and basically said...talking to you brings me down. Thinking about our situation brings me down, that the slightest contact with me makes her stressed and sends her into a "downward spiral." That it makes it hard for her to move forward and heal.

This seriously pissed me the [censored] off...because IM SENDING HER INTO A DOWNWARD SPIRAL? YOUre BLAMing ME?

1. Up until the past 2 weeks she's been contacting me every time she's stressed because I make her feel better
2. Im still keeping her afloat financially right now? How am I hurting her?
3. I actually spoke with her mom who basically told me that she doesnt think the door on me is closed. That when she left Texas a couple months ago she was telling her mom she's not sure if she should pack her bags and come back to Texas that this guy she is with cant support and provide for her and that he makes his kid a priority over her. But interesting enough, her mom told me to stand up for myself and not be a "pin cushion" because that isn't going to help her respect me. (yes everyone has said that here)

So what I did today, after she again decided to never answer my calls or texts, I said, please read the email i wrote you, I'm sorry if you feel like i bring you down because i try and do the opposite, and that we need to discuss the finances issues and call me by Friday because i don't want to make decisions by myself. Although I am set on cutting her off, id like to actually be able to tell her that instead of she tries to swipe her card and it doesnt work. But if she doesnt call me by Friday, Im going to try again on monday and then if i still don't hear from her, ill shut them off Monday. Again, I know i can simply text her and say I'm cutting the cards, i guess maybe i just want to be able to tell her directly so we can have a conversationa bout it? Specifically the car because both our names are on it. I cant sell it without her and I cant not pay for it because my names on it. So...until we agree to sell it or she puts it in her name, I'm stuck.

I know i have to cut her off. She will scream bloody murder and possibly throw in the D card. But i have to do it. and I'm going to do it. NLT Monday. I'm just giving and hoping us to have an opportunity to talk about it first...idk. I'm still being a bitch i think