I'm sorry that things aren't going better. Hang tough, you are really trying, I can see that.
If the STFU smoothie runs out make sure you have plenty of duct tape around.
My prayers are always with you!
Bob
Me:55 yrs/W:51 yrs (has MS) M:14 yrs T:15 yrs No children together--3 each from previous marriages Wife Moved Out: 10/19/14 Wife Filed for Divorce: 10/20/14 Divorce Final: 10/21/15