Matt777 Another successful day of not initiating contact. I did not text at all today. I did have to initiate contact once and that was when I stopped by his work to have him sign a check so I could pay the car insurance. When he got home I left right away to go drop mail off at post office. came home he asked if i was feeling alright? I had been crying not due to him but we are having some problems at work and they are downsizing and my director of Nursing said it was unsafe what they are trying to do and she walked out yesterday I found out today. Very upsetting as she has been there 20+ years and I have been there 8. Leaves us all up in the air and no one knows who else they will let go. It made for a very stressful sad day. I explained what happened and he said buck up buttercup it will all work out. he then asked me to decide what we were having for dinner i then let one of the kids decide. He told me I was a brat in a joking way. we hung out in the garage today and he asked if I was going to mopey all day. I suffer from major recurrent depression so going through all of this at work and at home is really wearing on me! I know happy happy happy but I had had enough today! I am proud of detatching. I know I have not done it perfect but I am off to a start. heck I used to text him all day and now I am not at all unless NEEDED. It has been a very silent few days but today he was a little more chatty! He left to go work in a shop in another town but waited until kids were in bed. He ASKED if he could go and if it was a problem!!!! He also asked if I wanted a hug before he left. SORRY MATT777 i did NOT decline it caught me off guard. I know these are not signs and I am sure we are still moving no where. but It made me feel good for him to start conversation ask me to help load tires, asked to go somewhere instead of telling me, and offered a hug. I need to get back on a sleep schedule and get my mood back up! GOAL for tomorrow: not be a friend ONLY for our trip to the fair/rodeo with just my daughter. no hand on his leg no flirting no relationship talk. you know that has been easier since i started not saying ILY and cuddling and ect. makes me sad to sleep on my side of the bed. o well the things you have to do.
